1 Aug. 2012 I lost my position under the rain

Date: 1st day of August in 2012. 

Weather: According to the forecast, Typhoon, "GENER"(SAOLA) was gone away but it enhanced the Southwest Monsoon that will bring rains and moderate to strong winds over Luzon and Western Visayas. Actually, I felt It's going on worse. 

In the morning, I saw the announcement of UC account on Facebook. It said, "UC have officially announced that classes will remain suspended in all levels, including college, for today, due to bad weather conditions and for the safety of students and employees. Stay home and keep safe and warm... -UC CCO" It's second suspension of classes. 

I texted to all DFC members I know to check their safeties. Only 4 guys texted back to me. I worried because already it's 4th day since this heavy rain and strong wind came here. A friend asked me of my safety but I answered, "Missionaries are always safe but mission places are not." Yes, that's a true. Sometimes, it brings us shameful. 

My place is also not perfect. The electricity is off and the water supply is cut off seldom. Some part of my house leaks badly too. But I couldn't complain about those problems. Even in same weather, somebody can be hurt or died. 

I'm not a doctor here even Jesus healed them. I'm not a social worker even Jesus fed them. I'm not a rescue even Jesus rescued them. So, who am I? Why I am here? 

It's a question I have had for a long, long time until now. My own answer? I don't know. I have no idea. 

If you ask me my job, I'll answer like my job is a missionary but... the meaning of missionary is not who can only and only teach the bible to the people who want to listen to. 

It's raining still now. I just pray to God. 

"Please, God!  Hear their voice instead of mine."